But WHAT was our dream? She had this little post-it-note, stuck on her desk 12 years ago, when I met her, which said “You have to know WHAT you want and THAT you want it!”. “What a complex girl”, I thought to myself back then. Who in the world knows what they want? My wish had not come true by the end of the year, because I had no idea what my wish was!
The moment of the beginning of the New Year is ALWAYS magical to me! I have no idea why, but time stops completely until our kiss is over. And during that kiss, while in the middle of the chaos and the never-ending screams and fireworks we drift away, together, alone…completely alone.
So I kissed away and wished away! May our fondest dream come true! May we find what our fondest dream is!
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The past few months had been so tough for us. 2009 didn’t show any mercy at all! Not only were we brand new parents, which led us to experience THE HARDEST moment of our lives, (something, for which I still haven’t summoned the courage to write and it may take a while till I do), but also we dealt with the horrible economical crisis of Las Vegas, the terrible home remodeling, and alkA had to endure some of the hardest, most relentless stress ever. When all the shit piles up on your shoulders, all you want to do is let go of it in any way possible, so if you need to throw it at your loved one, so be it! And that’s just how unbearable the load of shit had gotten.
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And the wish came to my mind clear as a day! Make a change in our lives! Save my family! I am the head of that family! It’s up to me to make a change! Vegas was not the place to raise a kid, it was not the place to work; my job was not what I had wanted to do; my education was not where I had wanted to leave it off.
You have to know WHAT you want and THAT you want it!...I knew!
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