May

Yes, friends, I changed my mind. Not really sure why I should waste your time with my daily random thoughts. I decided that if I want to be thankful I can do it on my own. Without the need to explain to the outside what and why. See you when I feel there's something worth saying. 

Peace out. 

18.April: neighbours

So we moved. And as usual it was all perfect until we heard the neighbours. Their awful nasty language, their constant yelling, their god awful children screaming like animals... We felt life was never going to be calm again. And we heard them throughout the day. No rest. We were desperate. 

And what happened? Allah called them, Mohamed summoned them, they loaded a truck yesterday and moved the fuck out! Fucking nasty neighbours! Gone! 

There must be a force after all! Weirdly the force of disdain and desparation must have driven them away. But I'll pray to Allah tonight and thank him for getting them the hell away from us! 

Salammajulam!

7.April: religon is dead!

Today I celebrate the death of religion! It's gone! Hardly any idiot believes in this wretched plague for humanity and Earth. And if you praise Jesus, Moses, Mohammed or Allah, you are part of a dying breed! Fuck you and goodbye! Die!

4.April: I'm a pretty good designer

Work poster. All my doing. I'm not too shabby. 

3.April: tables

Love going all out for guests! 

This was just the beginning of a good ole 6-hour Bulgarian dinner. And it was exhausting. 

..ooh and the pizza picnic in the new neighboring park was pretty nice. 

2.April: some days just suck

This was one of them. 

...

Although we did play a silly zombie game with friends and ate delicious Indian food..

31.March: nights

Nights on our new balcony:). Like!

30.March: yelling

Today I am grateful for saying what is on my mind. Yelling at idiots on service jobs when they are clearly completely wrong...there's something about fighting for your rights that I love. 

Here's one to all struggles for justice!

29.March: how do you take a minute when you are exhausted?

You don't. 

My five minutes per day exercise made me feel shitty instead of grateful this month.

A submitted her phd thesis, we moved house, S had some school drama, there was but a minute for me to catch up with anything. 

So where's the balance in my project? How can I manage not to feel like shit if exhaustion and guilty for not posting here? Hmm may be part of the lesson I am trying to discover and learn. 

Will keep trying. 

15.March: exhausted

Well, I am thankful for being alive. At this moment I have been with a sinus infection for about a month, I hurt my back carrying everything we own because we are also moving (slowly) as of last week, and I've worked harder than ever. Obviously my desire to post a thankful message each day will nit work but let's see how long it lasts until I give up again. 

Thanks, Marto for reminding me to write ;)

(PS:This onion sees everything)

8.March: datenight

Wow an awesome datenight with my awesome girl! Can't beat that! Happy international women's day girls!

7.March: I knew I would lose it!

No time. Argh. Let's keep trying!

2.March: moving

Love the thrill of looking for a new home! March will be the month for this. Wish us luck!

1.March: martenitza

A day to remember the Bulgarian tradition of red and white and teach Sami a little something about roots. 

29.Feb: I salute Leo DiCaprio today

For saying the only thing that matters. 

28.Feb: depressday

I feel depressed on Sundays. Not because Monday is coming. But because I am destined to feel uncomfortable with not being busy. Sami sure knows how to keep busy...  And I love that. 

27.Feb: more parks, more rides

Daddy and Sami day!  Loved it!

26.Feb: markets again

After a hard hard working week it's amazing to enjoy world food at a market on a Friday night. 

23.Feb: clever Oz signs

Amazing sign! Idillic landscape. 

22.Feb: nature + guacamole + beer

Three of the top ten things my world revolves around!

21.Feb: camping

I'm We had a beautiful experience with no internet for a couple of days. It's both distressing and so relaxing to get off phone, work and world. Desert islands might be our last chance for independence and freedom...

20.Feb: live

We went to a concert in Brisbane to see a BULGARIAN band! Some of our childhood favorites! It felt like we were teens again. Awesome!

Щурците!

19.Feb: buddies on trees

Tree climbing with Sami! 

Today I am thankful for still being included :)

18.Feb: the student

This is what my lively phd student's quarters look like at the end of the thesis writing push. 

Creative space. 

17.Feb: not lost but found

Found this Sony stereo with a turntable, great speakers and a 5-cd changer on the street! Works like a charm! Sound is beautiful and soft. 

Then I filled the changer with CDs and - because I don't know yet where to put it - I put the changer sideways. 

Bug mistake! Jammed five cds all over it! No open close or anything anymore. 

I've been upset all day. 

Until tonight I remembered some old engineering tricks from watching my dad repair...well everything. I dismantled the entire cd changer, pulled out the cds and put it all together! No breakage, no electric shock from testing it while open! Just a cut from the very sharp metal edges but lits of pride :). Even my dad told me he was proud of me...for the first time in my life! 

16.Feb: back on the Adriatic track

After having been in a few hard spots with the band we had a killer jam tonight! I'm so fucking good at screaming, I surprise myself :)

15.Feb: art

Art. I wish I could live in an art gallery! This is truly a goal of mine now. 

14.Feb: love is in the breakfast!

The wealth of tripical breakfasts is truly amazingly beautiful!

13.Feb: experiencing love

How do you describe the feeling of seeing a baby marine turtle hatch on its unique beach in this one little place in the world. How do you comprehend the momentous event you experience? And what is this that you are feeling?

I put my finger on it 24 hours later: it's love! I felt true love for animals...for Nature! Keep it safe! It's so majestic. 

12.Feb: roadtrips

Easily what gives life any meaning in the ratrace

11.Feb: Won a free prize!

It feels awesome to get a little box in the mail! I won another PowellPeralta fun contest (this time about "ripping the ripper" art) where I had this skull naturally come out of a vagina. Won these goodies! Not first place but still pretty awesome! A. already claimed the bag :)

10.Feb: joy

This little boy has started getting way under my skin lately! He's finally understood that it doesn't all have to be yelling and orders for us to truly get along and it's a bliss!

9.Feb: gonna miss the river

Moving soon. Enjoying the river. So detached from nature. Every little encounter is a bliss. 

8.Feb: ricky gervais

I must say, the funniest guy I have seen! Fell asleep laughing last night. Watched this: https://youtu.be/8Q1z0CMjKXc

7.Feb: walking

Life has been so sedentary. We enjoyed a four hour long walk along the ocean. Saw crabs, parrots, ibises, cockatoos...didn't take a single picture. I guess sometimes it's ok to just observe. I miss nature!

6.Feb: Slo-mo skate

I like it when Sami gets on board :)
Thankful for those Sami daddy moments!
Check out how good we are.... not!

5.Feb: submitted!

Submitted an application for PhD today. Fingers crossed!!! 

Thankful for gerrymandered this enormous weight off my shoulders! 

4.Feb: not a habit

It's amazing how deeply we dig into our grooves. It's been more than a month of daily posting and yet...I forget. I simply forgot. Two days of stress and no memory to post. No habit either, no time to reflect and be thankful. Looks like changing a habit takes much longer than 20 days...

Thankful for consistency. 

3.Jan: again?

Oh wow! I got a second job offer today! Muuuch better than the first one from last week! And it's still far from July when I will finish this project!

Proud of myself and thankful for these awesome opportunities! We won't be homeless!

2.Jan: hot hot heat

It was so hard to be alive yesterday! I got a heat stroke of sorts. Had a terrible headache. 

I'm thankful for being consistent, though. I still went to band rehearsal. 

...yes. It was a disaster. That's true. 

1.Feb: no meat!

Never! Just help this stop forever. Please!

https://www.facebook.com/videovuinhonvl/videos/495638683950714/

31.Jan: Quite a month!

May I say that I took some time to reflect on the whole month. It's been a while since I felt a month this long. Did this project contribute? I hope you have had a more mindful month of at least a little less sleepwalking than usual. 

30.Jan: taking it easy

Especially when A reads to Sami! I also get to listen in and enjoy the minutes of peace and quiet before he's up climbing couches, chairs,  walls, ceilings and sinks again....aaaah....

29.Jan: Bulgarian breakfast

I love it! Stopped by a place I've never been in before to buy some remedy for my hangover? headache. Found Burek! sold by a Turkish guy! If you don't know, it's best eaten with yogurt. Thankfully the grosery store was next door and I had the perfect breakfast! Yum!

28.Jan: Yours truly got a job offer today!

Not only did Sami have a second great day at school today but also I got a job offer for July when my peoject runs out! Yeeah! It's now sure that we won't starve to death in one of the most expensive countries on Earth! 

Education pays! I'm so glad we left Vegas!

27.Jan: first day of school

So proud of my boy! Changed schools today. He took it so bravely!

26.Jan: Sami and daddy day of fun

I am thankful for every quality moment as a father. They are few and I know they won't last long. Thank you, son, for the excitement and joy!

25.Jan: so hard

It's almost impossible to be trankful today. The morning started with a shattered iphone screen. It didn't progress well. 

I'm actually thankful that we went on a three hour walk and Sami didn't complain. He must have been feeling too guilty. 

Let's see how tomorrow goes. It's Australia day after all. Of course it doesn't matter. I'm just saying it's a day off. No picture today. You can imagine what a broken screen looks like. 

24.Jan: out and about

I'm That's what Queensland is all about! Mountain and beach in the same day. Not bad.